| Lyrics |
[Nov. 23rd, 2007|05:27 pm] |
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| | Het Hoogelaand-Ede Staal-Mien toentje | ] |
't Hogelaand songteksten
't Is de lucht achter Oethoezen
't Is 't torentje van Spiek
't Is de weg van Lains noar Klooster
En deur Westpolder langs de diek
't Binnen de meulens en de moaren
't Binnen de kerken en de burgen
't Is 't laand woar ik as kind
Nog niks begreep van pien of zurgen
Dat is mien laand, mien Hogelaand
't Is 'n doevetil, 's durpsstroat
't Is 'n olde bakkerij
't Binnen de grote boerenploatsen
Van Waarvum, Oskerd, zo noar
Mij 't Is de waait, 't is de hoaver
't Is 't koolzoad in de blui
't Is de horizon bie Roanum
Vlak noa 'n dunderbui
Dat is mien laand, mien Hogelaand.
't Is 'n mooie oavend in maai
'n Kou houst doeknekt in 't gruinlaand
Ik heb veur d'eerste moal verkeren
En vuil de vonken van dien haand
De wilde plannen dij ik haar
Komt sikkom niks meer van terecht
Totdat de nacht van 't Hogelaand
'n Donker klaid over ons legt
Dat is mien laand, mien Hogelaand |
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| Oh God... It's already begun.... |
[Nov. 7th, 2007|08:26 pm] |
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| | Hammer Smashed Face-Cannibal Corpse-Tomb of the Mutilated | ] |
I'm sitting at home working on a paper for English when I hear a most atrocious sound. I have the TV playing in the background for ambience and the words can be heard clearly. "Hark the herald angels sing..."
It has begun... The torment that is christmas music has already come. I've been ignoring the date and avoiding any and all major shopping venues in hopes that a miracle would occur and I wouldn't have to hear it till thanksgiving. But alas, my ears have been soiled. I now am remedying the horrendous atrocity with a self-devised cure. Cannibal Corpse. I dont intrinsically enjoy it, but like the Democratic party, it's the lesser of two evils.
Beware, for the circle of fifths will not be broken until january and all christmas oriented commercials taken off air. |
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| indistr |
[Oct. 26th, 2007|07:32 pm] |
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| |  contemplative | ] |
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| | Comp #2-Nick Joldersma-Good Days | ] |
A friend of mine helped to set up this indie music site where artists can sell their stuff. I finally got around to checking it out, and I am VERY impressed.
http://www.indistr.com
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| quick update |
[Jun. 22nd, 2007|02:52 pm] |
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| | (the hum of the computer) | ] |
I got 3 "B"s this semester and a B-. I got a raise at work, and my girlfriend got a new job that pays really friggin good as well as an awesome house appartment. things are going really well. Thanks God!
anywho, just thought I'd give a quick one minute update, I might give a more detailed update, but don't count on it... |
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| Old shit |
[May. 2nd, 2007|03:27 pm] |
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| | contemplative | ] |
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| | (the hum of the computer) | ] |
I found a REALLY old copy of one of my writings. I am quite certain I wrote this version a few years after I moved to the US. Probably grade 6 (1996-7).
I used to be called webster when I lived in canada, and I started loosing my skills shortly after I moved. I think it's obvious why.
A War of Identity
I emerge tearing away my outer skin.
It wasn't mine really, just the one they put me in.
So I feel no shame in destroying it.
I take on the attack of resurgence of the war I'm ready to fight.
Trapped souls and minds surround me, entangled in their thoughts.
Tied and tethered to the logic that they use, slaves to their cause.
No longer are they the ones that think differently, for now they act as drones.
I render their conjectures useless as they throw their arguments at me,
The harsh sting of doubt infects their thoughts as I present different perspectives,
An alternate idea on the truths that they have based their arguments.
I hear of everything dissappearing before a sick brooding,
Nauseating confrontation over the tales of one's own miserable self,
Tales that logic and reason had failed to express their great convictions.
I deny the empericism, the rules that are placed over my arguments,
I am an exception, my life begins as soon as a difficulty shows up.
To obtain a higher level of thought, one must destroy himself,
And yet embrace his intuitions and primal passions.
The passage I find is not blocked, yet doubt and confusion lay poised to end my trancendence.
Faith and commonality, passion and individuality.
These are the forces that I bind to fight for me.
The reasoning against me falls, and their assertions diffuse.
So universalized; they've been so unprepared for a mind so free as mine.
Yet they have not seen the full extent of my existence.
For a moment, I am caught in my imagination.
For in my mind I see the Great Lie.
It attempts to assimilate me, but mimicry is not my art.
So it fails, and I realize that it cannot assimilate me, and it never will.
The powers against me cannot win, for I have seen through its speculative philosophy.
Thus now I declare that only through individuality is there victory.
But I still live, and onward I shall roam; forsaken and prepared for a War of Identity.
I was taught well by this Great Lie, many great things I have learned.
One thing that I have learned, is that we are slaves to this Lie.
I then realized that this was not right.
So I sought a freedom to choose, to see the great alternatives, with which I am faced.
Now I know not where to go from here
I do not belive that it even matters.
Standing still and just simply being human is a worthy occupation of my time.
True freedom is like that I guess.
The Great Lie can no longer touch me now.
My mind can see the different alternatives that lay before me.
Through the commitment I have to the free choices I make I gain a realization of myself.
So now my beliefs have become my expression.
With it I weave existence to my desire;
At the moments of my first assertions, I realized that we will thrive with success.
For universiality requires us to compromise, and that not what we do;
We change the definition of the establishment every day.
With our creativity we destroy the Great Lie.
With our art we make a new elucidation, a new concept for everything.
A world, a reality that is only seen with fully awakened eyes.
Let your inspiration be the words that exhilarates your passions.
All appearances shall then be swept away.
Only then will you realize that you have been tricking yourself forever. |
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| Reflection |
[Apr. 26th, 2007|11:54 am] |
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| | Hair-Graham Central Station | ] |
Love is patient, love is kind and is not jealous; love does not brag and is not arrogant, does not act unbecomingly; it does not seek its own, is not provoked, does not take into account a wrong suffered, does not rejoice in unrighteousness, but rejoices with the truth; bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things. Love never fails; but if there are gifts of prophecy, they will be done away; if there are tongues, they will cease; if there is knowledge, it will be done away. |
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| Good grades? WTF?!? |
[Apr. 23rd, 2007|02:56 pm] |
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| | Agnus Dei-Samuel Barber | ] |
Ok, I must have figured something out regarding academic acheivment.... I just got my philosophy exam back today and I got an A- on it. I also got an A on my Sociology exam.... These are the first "A" grades I have gotten at calvin.... I never thought I would see the day that I would be acing ANYTHING....
It's kinda freaking me out...
Thanks God |
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| Tradgedy by local |
[Apr. 16th, 2007|07:50 pm] |
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| | contemplative | ] |
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| | Agnus Dei-Samuel Barber | ] |
So... Viginia Tech had a shooting. The reactions to this are odd this time around. This wasn't a highschool shooting, this was colligate shooting, and last I heard 30 people were killed. This is a tragedy for innocent lives were lost.
Now, I'm not gonna assume any details or motives pertaining to the shooting. However, I wonder if anyone is gonna express as much rage about the thousands of lives lost in Iraq, or the genocide in Darfur, or any of the other ongoing tragedies that are going on at this very moment around the globe.
maybe it's just me, but I think the world has always been fucked up, and will continue to be fucked up until the end. |
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| Hardcore? or ....not |
[Mar. 27th, 2007|07:38 am] |
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| | artistic | ] |
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| | Agnus Dei-Samuel Barber | ] |
Last night I found myself eating crackers with peanut butter and chocolate sprinkles.... the interesting thing was what I was using to spread the peanut butter onto the crackers... I was using an Ebony Ovation bridge that my company makes, the ones I have are the ones that were over the tolerances.
I realized what I was doing and laughed. I am using guitar parts to eat.... makes me wanna grab a tuning fork....... |
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| Relationships |
[Mar. 20th, 2007|02:15 pm] |
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| | Fly-Moxy Früvous-Live Noise | ] |
Relationships are fickle. I'll at least say taht much, but I will actually say more.
Tabitha and I decided to part ways on amicable terms today, and there is no animosity between us. She has a lot going on in her life, and I am not the person to get into details about it. I still care about her, only difference is that we now are friends.
For those of you who think I'm gonna go all emo on you, you can all just suck a nut. I have a life to live, and I shall live it to the fullest of my potential.
Peace out ya'll
-Nick |
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| Life worth living |
[Mar. 5th, 2007|03:04 pm] |
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What must we make of life?
What of love? Or wisdom?
The complex diad of emotion and thought.
Denying the pleasures of the body for the pleasures of the soul.
That is the matter with us?
What is the meaning of this story?
Must I deny all that I was taught?
Must I decide what truth is? What I know to be real?
There are two wills in us,
Because neither by itself is the whole will, and each possess what the other lacks.
Is it not true that as long as we cannot make up our mind which one we most want to do our heart is torn between several different desires?
All these different desires are good, yet they are in conflict until we choose a single course to which the will may apply itself as a single whole.
How do we know our will? How do we know that which is good?
Can I really know Truth? Wisdom? Love?
Do we deceive ourselves into believing.
Yet, do we believe ourselves from that which we experience and perceive as true? Do we believe that which others conceive?
By what do we limit our precepts and develop our understanding? Of knowledge? Of wisdom? Of love?
It is true that we desire that which is greater than we can achieve, the attainment of eternal truth.
Yet our lower self is held back by the love of temporal pleasure.
It is the same soul that wills both, but it wills neither of them with the full force of the will.
It is in this that we suffer at epic lengths, where truth teaches us to prefer one couse, habit prevents us from relinquishing the other.
All this leaves me hanging in suspense.
I probed the hidden depths of my soul and wrung its pitiful secrets from it, and when I mustered them before the eyes of my heart, a great storm broke before me, bringing with it a great deluge of tears.
Will we never be content? Must we always taste our suffering?
In this way I wrangled with myself, in my own heart, about my own self, finding no end.
It is in the lack of truth that we suffer.
The lack of wisdom. The lack of love.
It may be that a life lived in the search of truth, or of wisdom, or of love.
It may be that a life lived in the search of these, a life lived in knowing that we do not know, is a life we should live. |
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| Spring Semester |
[Jan. 29th, 2007|03:28 pm] |
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| | Fairmount-La Dispute-Vancouver | ] |
I just had my first day of classes for spring semester, and so far I can tell I am gonna do quite well.
I'm taking Business, Dutch, Sociology, and Philosophy. So I definitely have my work cut out for me, but I know I can succeed.
I'm still working part time at taylor, so I should be moderately busy this semester. I know I can do it, and I believe I can as well. I am also VERY greatful for the support of my family and my friends, and most importantly, I have the support of my beautiful and wonderful girlfriend. Yes in deed, life is looking up and I thank God for everything that has gotten me where I am now. Even if I struggle, I know I can overcome and rise above.
peace <3
-Nick |
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| Interim |
[Jan. 8th, 2007|05:23 pm] |
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| | How To Save A Life-The Fray-How To Save A Life | ] |
Well, Calvin Interim has started. I'm taking a class on Sherlock Holmes and it's a lot of fun.
Over christmas break things went very well. It was for the most part uneventful. The exeption to this is that I am now in a realtionship. My friends like her, my parents like her, most importantly I love her.
Happy New Year everyone!
New Years Resolution: Keep a good thing going.
*Raises Glass* Here's to the future: the bright and glorious unknown that we all face. May we do so together.
peace
-Nick |
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| Semester wrap-up |
[Dec. 28th, 2006|01:40 pm] |
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| | accomplished | ] |
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| | Bittersweet-Nick Joldersma-Good Days | ] |
Well my grades came in and heres my report card
(drum roll)
Calculus - C
Dutch - B
History - B-
not too shabby, I'm shooting for better grades next semester.
-Nick |
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| Exam update (Pt. 2) |
[Dec. 14th, 2006|11:27 am] |
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| | accomplished | ] |
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| | Get Together-Madonna-Confessions On A Dance Floor | ] |
Lets see, I had my Calc Exam last monday at 6:30pm, that wasnt too bad. I'm glad I'm done with calc, I probably got a C/C- in the course.
Today I had my History exam. That was easier than I thought, I probably got a B/B- in the course.
Tomorrow I have my Dutch written exam. Now I know that is going to be easier than a *makes a reference to last entry* blues solo over a chicago blues riff.
All in all, it has been a great semester.
Thanks to all those who have given me their continued support.
-Nick |
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| First Exam |
[Dec. 11th, 2006|02:17 pm] |
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| | Beat Box-Matisyahu-Live at Stubb's | ] |
I just kicked ass on my first exam
The oral section of the dutch exam was easier than putting a guitar solo over a chicago blues riff.
Me doing a solo over a chicago blues riff |
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| First Semester recap |
[Dec. 8th, 2006|02:35 pm] |
ok, technically it's my fourth semester at Calvin, but lets not argue semantics...
All the courses I took this semester were ones that I failed in my previous attempts. This time around is a complete turn around. I am passing all my courses. The lowest grade is a "C" in my Calculus, but seriously, it's CALCULUS! This is the turn around I've been waiting for. I found my motivation and my confidence. Depression is gone, self-worth is up, my parents are proud of how I rebuilt my life. I feel great!
I think things are changing for the better, and I think it's gonna be a life long change too. I can feel it.
*raises glass*
Here's to the future, the bright and glorious unknown that we all face.
-Nick |
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| 21st B-Day |
[Oct. 21st, 2006|01:34 pm] |
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| |  exhausted | ] |
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| | Diana Krall - Cry Me a River | ] |
I played it pretty light last night. I didnt pass out at all, nor did I black out. Here's the list of what I had: Mully's Stew, two glasses of PBR, Double shot of Jameson, 4 horseman, and a screwdriver |
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| one week |
[Oct. 13th, 2006|04:07 pm] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | aprehensive | ] |
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| | Tool - Vicarious | ] |
next friday at midnight (so technically saturday) I will be walking into mulligans. Luckily Peter will be there to carry me out and drive my ass home.
All of you who know me and are 21+ are free to come to mulligans. |
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